- I’ve totally been here. Like 15 mins ago. Lord, pleeeeeeease listen to me! I’ve got this blog to write and I’m not feeling very worthy of writing it.
(v1) in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief. It feels like ages since we last spoke but (v2) please don’t haul me into court [over it]. I’m sorry.
(v3) This past week, I’ve felt like anxiety has been chasing me and this morning it kicked me in the butt. That’s why I’m sitting here in this reading chair in the corner of my bedroom, (v4) my heart is heavy, like lead. I’m beat.
(v5-6) I’m going to close my eyes for a minute God. Are you still there? Why are the palms of my hands facing upward? Aaaaaahh….. Now I remember! You are faithful God. You are good, always. I even whisper it aloud. “Thank you God for being so faithful”.
(v7) God please give me the answers to why I’m feeling this way, the words to say what needs to be said.
(v8) I can feel your love right now. If only I felt this when I woke up this morning because I now recognise what the very thought of your love does to me. I feel calm. Can you show me how to wake up with this feeling in the morning? I reckon if I can start the day that way, I will go to sleep with the same trust I feel right now. I lift up my soul to you God!
(v9-10) I surrender! I’m all yours and I invite your Holy Spirit to fill me up in this present moment. Lead me into a place of clarity and peace, into cleared and level pastureland.
(v11-12) So come rescue me God. I’m here now, I wasn’t yesterday or this morning but I’m here now. My head is bowed. Can you see me raising my hands in silence, with no-one watching? In your infinite love for me, kill the anxiety [enemy]. And why do I ask? Because I’m your servant.
– Sera McCulloch